The fishing was good, albeit slow. An early spring hatch of the ubiquitous midge was lifting off the water like a fog, but I had yet to discover the intricacies of successfully fishing the little buggers, in fact, it was before I even considered the possibility. Instead, I continued dredging the depths in the tried and true manner of my early days, commensurate with the early spring success up to this point in my learning curve. Ah, what could be more fulfilling than having mastered the art of nymphing? Anyway, that was my mind set years ago because I had discovered a technique that launched my fishing acumen to a staggering new plateau. Confidence was my aura and I reveled in the pleasure of my newly found sixth sense. All was coming together, replete with tying skills and patterns that, at times, seemed to instigate feeding frenzies just by being presented. I remember the year and I remember the trip, it was as if I had past through a magic door and entered into a new world. It was also the year that I entered into a philosophical dilemma. The question: When is a fish caught not a fish caught?
I was standing knee deep casting into a large pool tailing a fast riffle, which appeared deep enough to swallow me whole. I was sporting a recently acquired Scott four-weight nine-foot four-piece, on which was up locked a Bauer LM1 wound with WF4-F, and the appropriate amount of backing. On the other end was 7 ½ feet of leader tapered to 5X and 18 inches of 5X tippet blood knotted in; terminated with a #18 bead-headed olive-colored creation of my own.
The almost imperceptible hesitation in drift precipitated an inherent reflex which resulted in the gentle but firm lifting of the rod tip. My immediate reaction was that slow sinking feeling we all experience when the thought of a snag destroys what might have been. However, this particular snag shortly took on a life of its own with a slow but steady upstream drift. My increased pressure did nothing to stop the slow upstream progress, even as I began to test the tensile limit of my ligature and 5X. And then all hell broke loose, it turned and bolted in the opposite direction, and with it my reel spewed forth its contents. My palm was quickly dispensed to the screaming disk in an effort to halt any further unwinding of the situation. Approaching my breaking point I backed off my effort and gave the fish a little slack. This tactic has proven successful, many times in the past, in preventing a fish from bolting to places unknown, and once again prevailed as the fish held at the pools end. I slowly walked my way to the fish, gaining back what had been lost in distance, not quite into the backing, but the spool diameter was getting down to the white line. The fish was firmly holding his ground, so I decided to add a little persuasion to come and join me. All was going well, and I thought I was gaining the upper hand, until we finally saw each other. I almost soiled my waders at the sight of the huge brown, and he in turn high tailed it leaving the pool for the fast water; heading downstream. I stood there like an idiot watching my chartreuse fly line turn into white backing before it dawned on me to follow in hot pursuit. I have entered into the feat of Olympian gymnastics a few times over the years, most of which I have come in second, but luckily this time, for reasons I can only guess, Mr. Brown decided to take a breather at the next pool down. Once again my Herculean attempt on the obstacle course found me sharing the same pool with the fish; he was holding tight to the bottom and I was holding most of my line. I was now determined that I was going to win this battle come hell or high water.
Convinced that I would take another second place if Mr. Brown made another mad dash down, I judiciously applied my pressure in a more give and take manner. So we played the game, back and forth, for quite some time. At last the fish began to relent to my insistence and was finally brought into full view, and that, is when my heart sank. There firmly attached to the left pectoral fin was my #18 bead head.
My disappointment was brought to hand, the fish was measured on the strong side of 26 inches, the hook was removed, and Mr. Brown departed, slowly sinking and taking with him my spirits. I have always been one who holds firm, to the belief, that a fish snagged is not a fish caught. But this fish, because of its size, got me to wondering. Could it not be possible that the fish took the fly, and during the course of events became snagged in the fin? If that is the case I would consider the fish caught. But then on the other hand, can an unverified assumption lead us to conclude a successful outcome? Had this fish been anything short of my biggest brown, to date, I would have nonchalantly dismissed any second thoughts. However, in this case I feel I have become a victim of circumstance, and I have ever since been plagued with this nagging uncertainty. I realize that I have a few good years left to redeem myself of this nagging snagging dilemma, but as the years fly by I see the chance at a bigger brown becoming a smaller possibility. I don’t as yet know what goes through a man’s mind when his time is drawing near, but if I find myself on my deathbed, gasping for my last breath, how do I put this to rest so that I my forever rest in peace?