Lets face it, how could a seemingly stable and rational individual ascribe itself even a modicum of sanity, when in pursuit of trout on the fly.
Thinking back to my early fly-fishing beginnings I just can’t figure out how the introduction, or is it the indoctrination, to fly fishing managed to develop itself into a lust for self deprecation. I blame my father, in part, because he was the first to place that long limber mystical wand into the little hands of my impressionistic youth. Flailing away it was, at first, more of a challenge, and a lot more fun, to see how far I could make the little fly, fly, than it was catching those pond stockers who were eager to devour any entity invading their space. As a matter of fact, when I watch many so called “fly fishermen” today, I get the impression that that is the whole point.
At the age of seven or eight, with the perseverance and patience of the typical young boy, I quickly bored of my casting mastery, having perfected the “puddle cast” to a distance not much greater than the length of my newfangled fiberglass fly rod. The nuance of the fly rod’s physical demands, over the cane poles boredom, was quickly lost with the coincidence of fishless effort. To think that I fell for the folly of success, in which a lifetime of both practice and study has gained me more fishless days than I can count, only confirms my dementia. What is even more troubling is why I abandoned that chunk of writhing magadrile mass and its high percentage of success, (which so enticed the many fish species into accepting the barbed spring steel offering of a young boy bent on forcing a fight, with a whopper of a tale, to further his standing amongst his peers) to a hook wrapped in chicken feathers, and its higher probability to failure. But over time the worm crawled back into its subterranean refuge, and was all but forgotten, exiled to the distant past of memory, as the winged fly emerged and took flight.
A philosophical transformation began to evolve with the realization of how easily the fish was lured to the fighting ring, and forced into the ropes, by dangling a worm in front of its nose, setting up the knockout punch to the jaw. I began to understand that it wasn’t so much in the catching, as it was in the deception of offering. And to complicate matters, what better deception could there be than to deceive with a complicated deception? But then again, the more complicated the deception the more the deception became complicated. A “Catch 22” to be sure. I think I’m beginning to understand why they call it a can of worms.
If this makes any sense to you, you too are demented.