Ed (Brothers) could be very diligent on an individual fish, and he often caught them -eventually. But I did see him once come off the river ashen faced and near tears -I swear his lower lip trembled as he wailed half in disbelief, "They...wouldn't...take ...ANYTHING! It was utter heartbreak, the life appeared to be drained from his soul. The ride back to Ithaca was wrought with explanations and justifications, then theorizing, and then … acceptance. I’ve often felt that every day I go through the stages of dying. And every now and then, I go to sleep in triumph. The value of delayed gratification is not lost on fisherman, but a survival tool.
Paul...:) Been there, done that. Most of us probably have as well. There are some fish I never figured out...I don't like to think about all the time I spent over them, the mass of flies tried, the furtive looks around, hoping someone's not watching me and laughing their behind off! :) The intense obsession that leaves you, like your pal Ed, questioning yourself. Asking yourself, "Why didn't I take to golf?"
My mentor Willy, would just shake his head, and yell at me to go find a more cooperative fish, one sitting in an easier spot, "Spence. We do need, eventually, to get back to the car."
A wild trout, in a feeding lane, actually rising over and over again...Well...To me, that's what its all about. The chess game of our pastime. Time slides by and there we stand, staring in to the fly box with a feeling that maybe, just maybe, its not in there.
Winning isn't always what its cracked up to be...I remember in high school a girl, a blonde, that would always smile at me when we passed each other in the hall. This went on for some time before I decided to approach her. I remember sitting outside her house with her and her girlfriend (they always seem to have a backup)...Before we actually spoke I let my imagination run wild, she was cute after all, and had created so many goofy 16-17 year old scenarios in my head...The year was 1971-72? I was going to be in that 18 year old group that were the first 18 year old's to be able to vote...As the evening progressed it came to light that she was a rabid Nixonite and at the time I was light years further left than McGovern, but was going to vote for him anyway...I got spanked twice that year! Lost interest in the girl, and McGovern barely carried his own home state! Ouch!:)
I guess what I'm saying is, it may all be about the process...Sometimes reality is a tad to real to bear! :)
There was a trout on the Madison in 1995...:)
Spence
Now that I look back at it, they did finally realize I was right about Mr Nixon and they sent him packing...Hmm...Guess I'll stand here a little longer, and maybe try just one more fly. ;)